Wow, Today!

The motivational today all most made me want to drink many bottles of liquor they are tough, they are real, and they are in your face loud. I am not where I am because of who I am I am because I had no plan. If only, I would have spent 24 hours to not just live life by the seat of my pants and plan something out that took a little more sense. I was memorized by the Cooperate ladder and I didn't drink the Kool aid. I have had so much evil forces against me that that with no plan led to me being homeless. Factor in some homicide that I was witness to and it racked havoc with my mental psyche. I am not looking for a hand out just some support to get going back on my two feet. I was set up I have ptsd and they guy was looking at porn on the laptop. They didn't even left me have a defense, and better yet then when I had a job at Lifetime Fitness when they left me go they brought me into the office for no reason and fired me. I couldn't ask questions and wasn't able to have a rebuttal because they never let me know why they got rid of me. Two potential careers were shot down by external forces and then every big career find was shot down with liquor or disability that was reveled to the employers.