Spiritual Affirmation - Joel Osteen

"When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself. When nobody else compliments you, then compliment yourself. It's not up to other people to keep you encouraged. It's up to you. Encouragement should come from the inside."

I don't know who this would be for I just know I am thankful to the ones who know me, and respect me; general thank you to anyone who gives a dam about me and doesn't make me the bottom of all jokes.

I agree, with this for the most part; but if I can be totally and 100% transparent right now I feel like dying I haven't had suscidal thoughts in my head for 10 months and today it happened. I am sick of being abused by external forces of nature and people that have to feel good for wanting me to commit suicided. Its ideation right now feeling better off dead is more like how I would say I feel now. I have always been the cheer leader and making people happy and now I am drowning in pain and suffering of a body that has been abused like a car when you melt the head gaskets. I am sick of it and I am getting a lawyer to help me some how I am going to find a way to win this battle of being artificial intelligence. I will find someone who won't judge me and will take me at my word and I am sick of people stealing my intelligences for some write of passage your illegal to do that and I am a believer in karma and it will catch you like a thief in the night; PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE