Self - Concept

2011 Whole Pearson Associates, 210 West Michigan Street, Duluth, MN 55802, 800-247-6789, pages 65-67

"Your self--concept is how you view yourself. A healthy self-concept is important in developing resiliency since the way you view yourself determines how you experience life. If your self-concept is positive, you will experience life that way. However, if your self-concept is fragile, and you are insecure, you will tend to feel overwhelmed when facing life's challenges. Your self-concept can be described as who you are and how you fit into the world. The following exercises are designed to help you develop a healthy self-concept." (page 66)

Know Yourself:

How are you unique- I am over 100 years old and have had past lives to give me personality and flare to this life. I have been in many world wars and feel like Vietnam was easier than these last seven years and 26, years combined. When the lord calls me home he will be looking at someone who radically accepted themselves out of a drug induced coma. I was running from everything and anything just to get the next high from my medication. I would be higher than a kite because some things just made me feel invincible. Coming down was the hardest part like Tom Petty would say coming down is the hardest part. If I am honest with myself and God; I can admit to a drug and alcohol problem that I have. I never do the same thing twice, every day is different, I hate people that do the same thing expecting different results. I am a wildflower belonging in a field where the wind can blow me and let my dreams run free. I enjoy being brutally honest with people who can handle it. I am fearless and will go out of my way to live on the edge.

What would I like to change about myself- I would like to work on my anger outbursts to minimize them for this next year and for the rest of my life. I would like to be approachable sometimes I come off so strong I scare people away; not my intention. I get annoyed at people who don't say anything worth while and just talk to hear themselves it makes me homicidal.

In what way are you worthwhile...I am worthy of being respected, I am big on treating authority figures in the law well. I am because of who I am. I am Is enough. I don't need a lengthy Manuel to tell me about how I should live my life or what to do because I Know how to live my life and I have broken out of a drug induced Acoma of 100 pounds needing to go and I am going to do what ever it takes to get rid of them. I have rules and if you repeat step 2 and 3 you will be back at one. Know thyself; Be true to yourself and God always.

What do you accept about yourself-- I accept the fact that I will fail if given the chance but, I respect the fact I get a second chance to try and make it better. I accept the fact that people will lie but, I don't have to take party in that or be the end of all jokes. I am free as a bird out of a cage put me in a box; I WILL BREAK IT with words first, then actions, and by myself I will show my ability when needed.

This song explains it all:

Fly Song by Jeff Lynne and Tom Petty

Lyrics Well I started out down a dirty road Started out all alone And the sun went down as I crossed the hill And the town lit up, the world got still I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings Coming down is the hardest thing Well, the good ol' days may not return And the rocks might melt and the sea may burn I'm learning to fly (learning to fly) but I ain't got wings (learning to fly) Coming down (learning to fly) is the hardest thing (learning to fly) Well, some say life will beat you down Break your heart, steal your crown So I've started out for God-knows-where I guess I'll know when I get there I'm learning to fly, around the clouds But what goes up (learning to fly) must come down I'm learning to fly (learning to fly), but I ain't got wings Coming down is the hardest thing I'm learning to fly (learning to fly), around the clouds But what goes up (learning to fly) must come down I'm learning to fly (learning to fly) (Learning to fly) learning to fly (learning to fly) (learning to fly) (learning to fly) (learning to fly)

I have to accept myself that I have a major addiction to drugs and alcohol and that it is okay to be in recovery and I will make it a better life than drowning in it.

About what do you criticize yourself? How accurate are the criticism's?

I don't period. Its dangerous its unhealthy and I don't want any part of it. People will say;

She's too loud, opinionated, crazy, wiled, out of control, lost soul, cancer living hero, some things are accurate but for the record 99 percent of what you hear is gossip and the grapevine 70% of it will only be true. Its time to make red wine with those grapes. People need to chill out and accept others as they are because no one knows the battle you are fighting might be silent.

What do you like about your appearance .... I like myself as long as I have make up on but I cannot hide anymore, its painful but the depression shows when I don't wear make up and so I like my make up with the glow and life. I like my fragrances they make me happy and an attractive personality helps with good Pheromones to add to it.

What do you dislike about your appearance....I hate not having money I am going to change that with my checks I am getting I'll be able to have what I need pretty soon. I will feel better about myself because of what I am wearing and trying to walk five minuets each day and ad to it soon I pray. I hate the blows to my face and I wish the trauma would reveal itself in my face and body. I will get rid of this weight because its killing my self-concept its trying to get the best of it and I don't like it at all. All is about too change pretty quickly. I don't like that there are 500 Million people putting me down because I am to fat, ugly, I have looked a hell of a lot worse.