Wrong choices bring states of Ideation of suicide don't ever let yourself die it's a battle come bak

37 people ='s 1 Person. 17 Years of it; I am done august 11th 2021 will be a year free from it all. I am so upset at myself I'll never forgive myself at all. I had fallen in love with a man who said and told me he didn't get along with his wife and he hated his marriage with her I was fed lines because I haven't called him for a year and he's never called back except one time I didn't pick it up. I fell in love with a sociopath who I worked hard to help him overcome that and be better at his career he is doing well IDK I hope he is okay they change faces faster than you would understand and never again to go through 37 faces I might write a book about it. Lord help me acknowledge what happened to me before I die so I can go to heaven. I am so upset today because someone made me gain 110 pounds and they are into my computer they hacked each post I wrote today and so my Wix account isn't safe nothing I do is safe everything always gets altered. Know anything I do gets altered that's why I stopped writing emails. I never should of let them take my computer I am going to have the Crow Wing County Take My computer From their House! Watch The Body Guard its the story of my life and it will explain the life I lived for 17 years and his mother wanted me to help her I declined because he was with Lisa Franco who might of been a man.