Adversity Advantages Angels Among Us

When I look over the course of my life and think about what I have done this past 40 years I look and find some major accomplishments; being able to speak in front of a crowd, giving a sales presentation in front of 1500 people at Best Buy Campus, being one of the lead competitive intelligence ambassadors, saved a guy from dying on a train that crossed the river, getting into the best shape of my life, living through a major car wreck that took me back 30 pounds worse than I was at my worst. We recorded five songs in 8th Grade I made the cut for Jazz Band and wish now I would have joined Choir. We cannot go back we must go forward but, now I know I'll raise my Officer Captain Original Copy Sophisticates to give them that option sing, or instrument or both.

All of these things are things that could of pulled me down to a distressing call to police but, it was with there tender love and care that each meltdown I had they deescalated. Sometimes I would have to go get my medication adjusted but, now I know that through my military intelligence it was taken away and, I didn't know what to do to keep it inline. Some of my life events really have taken a toll on my life but, I guess you could say, "What doesn't Kill you; Makes you Stronger" - True Fact. I am so thankful to all police that have ever helped me through a Meltdown; I would get them because of the pain in my head and body. My stomach had such a pain before the accident that they put me on hydrocodone and that saved me during the accident with the pain.

If I were to look at my life in 20 year parts it would be pretty big book to read but, I think instead of going through a mid-life crisis I have lived in crisis for the past 8 years. When you live in crisis you live with the bare essentials to the limit you can take it. If I could make things better I would in seconds but, I have gotten tired with all this extra weight and too much pain. I'll rise above the pain and make life go round and, try to get back to the treadmill. Each day you do something to make life a little better and since being in this crisis center It makes me wish I would of done this 8 years ago. I didn't know what people meant by Irhtiz Facility. They are equipped at handling Meltdowns and trauma that I had been through. I am grateful to Dan, Heather, H. and O. Rachel, Christi, and Christie, Ryan, and Carneece, and all the wonderful people here at the East St. Paul PPL Inc.

One could look back since my life from college and see that I had a pretty good existence. Its only been the past 10 years that have really been rough on me. I am a happy woman and have a lot to be thankful for. In adversity striking my life I have overcome so much Bulls-hit that, most would of given up. I gave a 11,000 characters of the glamorized version of my life and this is one that highlights the difficult times. Physical Pain is enough to make one go crazy if its not under control you will end up in a hospital. When I ended up in the hospital after my car accident; I just didn't know what to do to pick up the pieces. It was like I was on an Island with only a soccer ball; screaming Wilsoooooon. That accident looking back is what was the plague of my loss of work, lively hood, and then realizing that an outer force was calling all my employers and then I'd loose my job.

My life is one that is never boring or dull, I live in the moment and, Keep going despite the chips stacked against me. I just really didn't know how to pull it together with my life after loosing my corporate career. The ladder was on fire and I fell right through the floor into hell because I believe Earth is truly the first layer of Hell as we call it. Earth really doesn't exist for the cosmos is really where the most of our oxygen is and, we probably in time will send space ships up to get oxygen from the cosmos. Earth, was around when Jesus walked the planet but, when he died Earth Turned into Hell. Its another light year away but, I am a believer in other worlds existing beside our own. This is why its so important to keep space exploration open. Being in Treatment its helped me open up my life because up until now I have been pretty private about my life on Wix.

My stories are real the names aren't changed to keep people covered. I am a believer in 2nd chances and my original copy officer captain family now can make sense of my life. They don't know what they don't know. Its the fight that great eureka moments are defined. Travel has been a major theme of my life. I have been to:

• Wisconsin - Oshkosh - College

• Illinois - Wedding - Concert - Nokia Training

• North and South Dakota - Health and Vacation

• Iowa - Driving Trip to Lake of the Ozarks

• Michigan - To meet Andy and Peter from the Ohio Retreat

• Indiana- To visit Norte Dame and Ohio Retreat

• Mourssi - Oklahoma - Nebraska - To visit who wasn't my sergeant mother

• Montana - Colorado - To go see the Pope

• Arizona - Visit my Aunt Priscilla

• Florida - Many times with my family and with Campus Crusade

• North and South Carolina - Georgia - Texas - New Orleans, Nokia adventures

• New York - Visit 9/1/01 Memorial - Must go back its incredible

• California - Interviews Homicide case

• Ohio- Catholic Retreat

This is what keeps me going and I am ready to go on a trip soon next year September after 100,000 pages are read we will go see Kennedy Space Center in Florida once covid-19 blows over. Traveling will add years and experience to your life when you fly and drive it does have a way to create adversity and you find ways to over come all of it. Going through life not knowing who my mother or fathers were was very difficult. Most of my life I was very depressed because I knew they were traceable but, didn't know who they were.

The birth certificate I was given was wrong because I proved that Pauline Remer Is not My mother.She lives in a place that is very scary and, I never want to go back there. We did drive on Route 66 and it was pretty boring but, we stopped at one of the famous driver and dives. I cannot remember the place's name but the food was good. That was a relationship that ended after that trip it just didn't have what I needed and, I know I was in search of my Fathers. I always carry a hope that I am closer to finding the rest of the story and each day I live I am thankful to the Lord that they provide for me in a way that is unexplained to human existence. They exist in an autonomous way and care for me in a way that is so incredible it makes me excited that I am closer to meeting them now more than never.

I was the FBI baby born in Russia, I have 39 Fathers who slept with a Siberian White Tiger and that describes my personality to a tee. I am not going crazy, I am not exaggerating

this its a true story and, my real mother is an Animal; Katherine Victoria VanAnderland, I was here first and only daughter. Living in Russia had its benefit it was simple back then and we would go to church every Sunday. He would carry me because of my fight with Cancer and then sing me to sleep after having soup. That was a typical Sunday in Russia with my one of my Father's colleges. I have what you would call past lives and, could write a novel, "Three Lives before, I get to Heaven." Its really hard because the entry of my life was so good that when I was kidnapped from Russia it was not good at all. That is what gave me the beginning of a devastation being ripped from the ones I love.

My advice on over combing obstacles is to just do the following:

• Breath

• Write / Journal / Blog

• Have a therapist

• Find your purpose

• Figure out your existence

• Live in the moment

• Live with Adventure

• Live with meaning and reason

• Take a road trip at least once before your 40

• Pamper yourself

  • Set Goals and Limits for yourself

This is another snip-it of my life that will help you understand myself and my adventures of life. Live with purpose, Live for a cause, Fight for something that is bigger than you! Go the distance to find Love, life, and living. Challenge your beliefs and press it to the limit. Live each day as if no more were on it way. Challenge yourself to set goals and dreams to be lived by 60.

My favorite President always would say, "Ask Not what your Country can do for you; Ask what you can do for your Country" - President John F. Kennedy